I've decided that I hate this blog.
I started it when I was at a really good place health wise. I had just lost 60 pounds in a year, was walking 3-4 miles daily, eating well and feeling great.
Unfortunately, I left most of the good health things behind and slowly (over a couple of years) regained most of the lost weight and gave up on the good habits of diet and exercise.
Like many people, I've struggled to find a balance of living the good life and living a healthy life.
So far, this week has been a good week.
I've refocused on the diet part of living -- not the restricting weightloss kind of diet, but the not eating so much crap kind of diet.
When it comes right down to it, I'm pretty aware of how different foods will affect me. The fitness adage -- Eat well, feel well. Eat crap, feel like crap. -- is true.
I've been re-reading old material and reading some new stuff and working on changing my attitude towards what I'm eating and manipulating my metabolism to do a better job of getting rid of the pounds that I've put back on.
When I started this blog, it was so that i wasn't always writing about food and exercise on my other blog. Now I never write about good healthy stuff on either blog!
I'm going to be back here more often.
I think that forcing myself to write about the struggle will actually help me to stay focused. Maybe I can turn the "I hate this blog!" feeling into more of a love/hate relationship that will at least provide a more healthy John somewhere along the way.